I've been feeling restless and dissatisfied I think. When that happens I start looking at big ticket items: new toys to temporarily distract myself. New sewing machines, new iBooks, new cars. I don't need any of them, and can't afford some of them, but I look nonetheless.
When I was working fulltime and not yet a mother, I had a lot of disposable income (well, it seemed like a lot to me). I shopped as therapy, as a distration. Buying new things made me feel better, but it was always a fleeting feeling.
So while I have those urges now, I also know myself better now and don't act on those impulses but sleep on thm, entertain them, all the while trying to figure out what's prompting them in the first place.
Monday morning restlessness
August 30th, 2004 at 03:14 pm